About 7 more days until my boyfriend is here! (:
I just took four hours studying for my math final. Such a pain in the ass. Sometimes I wonder why I am going to school when a degree doesn’t even guarantee me the career I want. I feel like college is a rip off and if I don’t go I will get judged. Yes, education is important which is why I want to become an elementary teacher but WHY do I need to take classes that doesn’t have anything to do with my career? I know I’m not gonna use y=mx+b for teaching my future 2nd or 3rd grade students, so why am I learning this stuff? Yes, expanding my knowledge is what they’re trying to do but if you’re going to expand my knowledge teach me things I can use in my career..-__-
I am so blessed to have friends who take time outta their day to tell me Happy birthday. I’ve learned to appreciate the small things in life because not everyone gets told by people “happy birthday” on their special day. Even though I had school and still had to worry about my paper and homework, I still had some amazing people who said happy birthday to me and it just makes my day. Hearing from a lot of friends in how they consider me one of their best friends is just a good feeling because I consider them as a best friend as well.
I have lately suffered from a couple panic attacks. I rarely get them but lately I have been getting them more often. It fucking sucks because I like to be a strong person and having the feeling of losing control of your body and emotions suck ass.. I just had a panic attack and man ugh… I hate this.. Primo needs to come home because I can’t do this..
You need some Vanessa time! Meaning dedicate an hour or two where you just dgaf about anything and have that time to yourself. Idk if its stress but I used to break down a lot to the point where I had to go in my counselor’s office and let it all out during school. She told me its because I tend to over think things and make small problems into big problems, and I just need to stop worrying stuff way too much and give myself an hour or two a day where i just don’t give a damn about anything. Meaning giving myself some “Me-time” where if someone calls me I need to pick up and tell them “I am sorry but I am having some me-time right now please call back in an hour or two, thank you bye!” And I have been doing that and it’s helping me a lot :) I don’t break down anymore from over thinking about school and my future. I hope this helps you! And whatever you’re thinking about I hope it’s not to the point where it affects your everyday life. As my counselor would say “Stop thinking too much about whats going to happen tomorrow or what happened yesterday, live in today because we all aren’t promised a tomorrow..”
My boyfriend is gonna be here in a few days!! Finally some time together and we will get to see how everything goes. I haven’t seen him since July!!
I watched that movie the other day, and let me tell you..the teacher in that movie is the perfect example of the type of teacher I want to be in the future!! She’s so dedicated in making students better themselves and that just because their life is bad it doesn’t mean they should blame it on other people because people have their own problems as well. There are ways to fix them and they don’t need to be out killing people. This teacher did so much that in the end the students really love her. I want to be that kind of teacher! That kind that students would enjoy having and someone that really made a positive impact in their lives.
I LOVE court cases. I remember with the Jodi Arias case, I liked this Facebook page and they would post the session for that day and I literally would sit 2 hours watching the whole thing. Lol I seriously would go on Facebook JUST so I can watch it. I love watching murder cases and finding out the truth and investigations. Its interesting to me. I also LOVE reading about murder histories, I find them scarier and just interesting. It makes you really think about what drove those people to do such cruel things. Its crazy!
I actually like reading people that went to my high school’s blogs. I always wonder what most of them are up too since I don’t attend the same college that most of them do! But I will be and I’m going to feel like I’m at home :) I would rather go to a Community College a lot closer to my house and with people I actually know than going to a University costing thousands of dollars. Even though I am legible for a $10,000 scholarship, I would so much rather be at a community college where I don’t have to be afraid to losing my scholarship. As of right now I’m a straight A student!! And Imagine being a straight A student in a community college with a GPA of 4.0 and transferring into a university?! Yes, thats right..shitloads of scholarships!